EX- FAILURE

Beloved,

Today I want to take you on my journey of freedom.The Lord has been sharing with me that in order for the book of my life to be opened my life must become an open book. Not just for me to see but for the world to see.I have learned not to be ashamed of where I am, because where I am going is far greater than what my natural eyes can see. This blog is not because everything inside of me desires to share with you..but it is for Freedom. Every time I open my mouth I make the enemy a liar and today is exactly what I am doing.

Wow so this Sunday service at The Furnace was completely amazing. After service Our Pastor told us that she felt like that she needed to let anyone who needs to stay behind to receive prayer stay behind. I knew that for a couple of weeks that fear and thoughts of failure had been trying to bring me down. I remember grabbing my things and getting ready to walk to the car and the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said" Do you want to be free?" I said Yes and I put my things down and sat on the floor. As I was sitting there a flood of thoughts came to my mind: You will never be free, you might as well just get up, ha ha the same people that you sitting on the floor with is the same ones that you minister to BIG FAILURE. Maybe you never had these thoughts but I will be honest for you ..they come! So I just began to pray and build myself up to silence the voices. Then I heard a voice still small voice say to me "Daughter today not only do I set you free from the opinions of others but failure today I break failure off of you." Then I heard this other voice call me and it was my Pastor and she was sitting in front of a lady and she said I was sitting here asking God who is to pray for her and he said you. It completely blew my mind because here I am sitting on the floor with thoughts of being a failure but yet the Lord wants to use me? Many times we feel like that God cant use us because of the issues that we face in life but I have come to know the one who takes the foolish things and use them. All this is to say that never let the enemy tell you that because of the issues that you face that you are the only one facing them and that it makes you disqualify ed. I think about when Peter denied Jesus I'm sure he felt horrible but the Lord said "upon this rock I will build my church. The enemy would love to make you feel like your the only one and that somethings wrong with you. The truth is that Jesus died for everything that we face be the rock that he builds upon and refuse to allow the enemy to tell you any different. I hope this testimony blesses you